Yiyun Li: Music Against the Night | Things in Nature Merely Grow

By the time my students get to the middle of their grade one book in piano, they will already know what a nocturne is; a night song, an expressive piece that often evokes the close of day. By the time they get to grade two, they will be introduced to Chopin, the composer who ensured a place for the nocturne in every classical pianist’s fingertips.

Music Against the Night tells the story of a prodigy touted to be the next Mozart by his family, the 18th century Irish virtuoso, John Field, who first conjured the nocturne, but who endures as a mere footnote on a Chopin biography. It is also about Adelaide Percheron, another prodigy in French India, who would fight her way to Europe where she would cross paths with John Field, and whose extraordinary life would provide the story with an ingenious feminist streak, but who would have sadly remained a footnote of a footnote, if not for this book.

This reader is mindblown by Field’s milieu, which Yiyun Li reanimates so masterfully! Encounters with Beethoven, Haydn, Czerny, Clementi, and Clara Wieck-Schumann (who was trained in the John Field Method), pepper the novel. Yiyun Li recalls a passage from War and Peace where Countess Rostova requests a musician to, “Play me my favorite nocturnes by Master John Field.” Possibly Tolstoy’s personal tribute to Field, his mother’s music teacher.

In a clever trick with the novel’s non-linear form, John and Adelaide are apart for almost the entire book, and it ends with their meeting. The author, known for her stoic clarity, rejects melodrama and writes life’s tragedies with straightforward language. But I realized that one should not be deceived; it is only at the last sentence where everything will come rushing at you, leaving you with a sustained ache that lasts as long as the strains of a nocturne on your heart.

It takes one as acquainted with darkness as Yiyun Li to perceive through the music that, oftentimes, nocturnes were invoked by their composers as music not necessarily about the night, but against the night, against the abyss. Because as she and her characters very well understand, there is music, and outside of that, silent darkness.

Although I would argue that this book is a work of sophisticated polyphony as it explores intricate themes such as the pressures that come with being a prodigy, the commodification of music that seems to be discordant with artistry, the lure of fame and the lust for recognition, and the personal sacrifices one must make to pursue a career in music, it is still a nocturne in the way the purity of its melodic lines float above everything else, and it is very much a nocturne in the sense that Yiyun Li wrote this as her personal music against the abyss.

To paraphrase a line from the book: What is art for, if not to count, mark, and endure time?


In Music Against the Night, Clementi tells John Field, “But we must pay attention to the biographies of great musicians. Why is that, John?” To which the young John answered, “That’s how I can understand their music.”

To fully grasp a musical opus, classical musicians are often required to delve into the life of a composer and inquire into the times in which a piece was written. I have sustained this habit that music has imparted and apply it to literature.

Grateful to a dear friend for lending me her copy of Things in Nature Merely Grow that profoundly informed my understanding of why Yiyun Li had to write about nocturnes, and about the fraught lives of John Field and Adelaide Percheron. I’ve stayed away from Yiyun Li’s work fearing that she would write about the kind of sadness that would suck me in. Little did I know that she insists on life! Believes that, “Life is still to be lived, inside tragedies, outside tragedies, and despite tragedies.” This book transcends description. A review won’t do it justice, and I highly recommend it as a companion read to Music Against the Night.

Barbara Kingsolver: Partita

A Bach Partita is an essential part of a pianist’s repertoire. It is often the first requirement for a classical pianist’s solo recital or audition. But partitas are not what pianists would instinctively pull out from their bag of tricks when asked to play for an audience unfamiliar with classical music. Although extremely demanding, set against a piece composed in the 20th century or Romantic period, a partita would appear underwhelming to the untrained ear. But these partitas, these pieces of understated elegance, these pieces that instill restraint and timelessness, actually contain the foundations of pianistic education; from voicing, to phrasing, to breathing, to relishing counterpoints instead of fighting them, to ascertaining one’s balance, to finding one’s way and eventually arriving at the warm embrace, the sought-after resolution… in short, the Bach partitas teach one about life.

And that is perhaps why, out of all the piano compositions that were meaningful to Livia Bohusz in the story, Kingsolver chose to call the book “Partita”.

As a small-town pianist, there was so much to relate to about the seeming out-of-placeness of classical music in such a setting and in such a life. As someone who was scarred the most by someone whom I once thought was perfect for me, there was even more to resonate with. As someone whose greatest fears involve injuring one’s hands, I wondered for most of the novel if I would ever recover from it.

Surprised by the details presented in the book that, more often than not, only pianists are privy to, I was amazed by the profound level of research that Kingsolver devoted to Partita. Only to find out that she studied classical piano on a scholarship before changing her major to biology. Now I’m even more amazed that it was her lived experience with music that made this story so real and so tangible.

Partita is not only about art: It asks for whom art is and what art is for. Partita is not only about life: It asks whether we allow its difficulties to derail us from seeking that hopeful resolution. Partita is, thankfully, not saccharine about love: It only reveals that perfection and idealism have nothing to do with it. Above all, Partita is about hope: Something we all need these days.

A Reading Girl in Kazakhstan

That was me. The girl with a Gogol anthology poking out of a backpack pocket while walking the length of Almaty’s Gogol Street a number of times, earning her more than 20,000 steps a day; 

who paired her first Kazakh meal of horse meat and fermented camel’s milk with Alina Bronsky’s insane but unexpectedly touching Hottest Dishes of the Tartar Cuisine;

who carefully savored the nuances in every Kazakh story from Amanat (Women’s Writing from Kazakhstan) on every fermata between adventures, and upon completion, discovered that it would be one of her favorite collections of short stories;

the girl who brought Buzzati’s The Stronghold (aka The Tartar Steppe) to a stronghold in a Tartar steppe, and who realized that Buzzati would have been happy with her for taking a cue from his novel and living a life contrary to that of Drogo’s;

the girl who felt like a queen when she received a cute note in English with tiny flowers from a barista in Uralsk, and a free pass at the Pushkin Museum by reading and bringing The Queen of Spades with her;

who learned about Pugachov’s Rebellion through Pushkin before knocking on Pugachov’s door;

who reunited Dostoevsky’s Notes from a Dead House with Kazakhstan simply because it’s where he started writing the notes;

the girl who wished she flowed, but instead, lumbered through Sholokhov’s epic “And Quiet Flows the Don,” and being devastated by it, could only take the hefty book to the house where Sholokhov learned that he was awarded the Nobel and play a plaintive melody on his piano while gazing at his portrait, wanting to ask him so many questions;

the impractical girl who carried all these books to a trip, thankful that she did because Kazakh bookstores humble the English reader by catering only to the Kazakh and Russian reader;

the girl who agreed with Marga Ortigas who wrote that reading is, “A special gift that showed you how much of the world still lay beyond the safety of your comfort zone”;

the girl who believes that traveling is one way of acting upon that gift. 

November 26, 2025 – Zenkov’s Almaty

ZENKOV CATHEDRAL / MUSEUM OF FOLK MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS

Through my acquaintance with Kazakh literature, I learned of a detail in Turkic mythology of how a musical instrument was believed to be a branch of the Tree of Life, and how this branch was to be bestowed upon a chosen one, shaman or musician. It’s beautiful how this story articulates how much their culture values music, to the point of associating music and musicians with what is most sacred to them.

Because of this, it did not come as a surprise when I heard about the Kazakh Museum of Folk Musical Instruments in Almaty. There were stringed, wind, and percussion instruments that had been owned by their most famous musicians throughout history, some looked like they could double as weapons. There were new ones, but there were also instruments that bore battle scars, which I considered to be the most beautiful in the collection. I found myself alone with this wonderful curation of musical instruments that I had never seen before, and as their music played through the museum’s sound system, filling the eight different rooms with emotion and spirit, I felt transported.

But this museum is little-known, and usually bypassed by many who go straight to Almaty’s most famous landmark — the Zenkov Cathedral (that ornate Orthodox Church built entirely of wood that miraculously withstood the great 1911 earthquake that devastated most of Almaty). What most people don’t know is that Andrei Zenkov, the architect of the iconic cathedral, also designed the museum building in 1908.

After immersing myself in the museum, I walked to Zenkov Cathedral and honestly did not know what to make of such a colorful edifice. But looking back at the history of this place around the time these two buildings were constructed, I realize that it must have taken a certain amount of courage to create something with such vibrant colors and a hint of whimsy. Now I look at both buildings as works of defiance and resolute joy.

October’s Horrors

The Ex Libris October horror theme and Krasznahorkai being awarded the Nobel Prize in Literature seemed to point to one title on my shelf for my book of choice, the author’s debut novel, Satantago. Although set in post-communist Hungary, it reminds me of another Nobel laureate’s masterpiece, Olga Tokarczuk’s Books of Jakob, in the way the direst of circumstances require a savior and people recklessly fall for a con man that they believe could fill the longing for a messianic figure, inevitably leading to grim consequences. Its chapter numbers reveal a curious anomaly: Upon reaching VI, it counts down to I, apparently resembling the tango steps that go six steps forward and then six steps backward. If I’m right in thinking that this devilish dance, this Satantango, is a depiction of the cycles of history and society, then it is a rather bleak portrayal of humankind, but it is not far from the truth.

Thankfully, Krasznahorkai’s eerie shadows and unrelenting rain were tempered by Lasco’s ever hopeful outlook, despite raising questions about uncomfortable truths, demanding accountability and transparency from our leaders, making us understand that a crime against the environment is violence, while simultaneously encouraging moral response rather than moral panic. This reader prescribes Lasco’s Second Opinion for a healthy and much-needed dose of social medicine.

Aboard the Voyager I is a “golden record,” compiled by a NASA committee chaired by Carl Sagan, that includes Gould’s recording of Bach’s Prelude and Fugue in C. Gould’s piano tuner is quoted to have said, “…it was like a dream. There’s Bach writing the music, Glenn is playing the music, and it’s my tuning that’s giving it voice. And it’s going somewhere in outer space.” A Romance on Three Legs is an essential and enriching read for pianists that, as promised, chronicles Gould’s “obsessive quest for the perfect piano” but goes beyond his brilliance and his eccentricities and ventures deep into the world of pianos and uncommonly highlights the often undervalued contribution of piano technicians. For this reading pianist, this book was read in the key of fascination.

But it was Arturo’s Island that exceeded my expectations. It has the allure, the perturbing quality, and the devastating effect of a Greek tragedy — where the tragedy, if one reads deeper into it, is to live without love, especially a mother’s love. (Now that 800-page NYRB doesn’t seem so daunting anymore. Now I understand why every significant Italian author reveres Morante.) This book has prose so lush that I want to steep in it all day!

We did not have to seek after books that portrayed the supernatural; we only had to look into literature depicting history, current events, corrupt politicians, and human nature to be reminded that there is horror enough in the real world. But it is through reading that we can try to make sense of it all.

Rainbow Mountains, drunk monks, Russian authors, and Beethoven, near the Azerbaijani border

A day trip close to the Azerbaijani border had the Rainbow Mountains (preferably, bacon mountains haha) and the 6th century David Gareji Cave Monastery on the itinerary.

What I did not expect was the off-road adventure getting there, trekking some tricky paths, the otherworldliness of the landscape, and stopping at a far-flung, family-run restaurant in the mountains. This small restaurant had a cozy room full of books; an unplayed and untuned Russian piano; and two drunk, flirtatious, bearded Orthodox priests as old as the piano, who blurted out the names of Tolstoy, Dostoevsky, and Bulgakov in their drunken stupor. I was so amused by them, so when one saw my eyes light up in recognition, he asked, “You understand? You understand?” The names were all I understood, but it became a game. He would say, “Bulgakov,” and I would answer, “Master and Margarita,” and he would smile broadly and say a string of wine-soaked words. When he said, “Dostoevsky,” I said, “The Idiot,” and he laughed so heartily.

My frozen fingers which hadn’t caressed a piano in a week felt grateful for the contact with the piano keys despite the avant-garde sound that they produced. I felt the warmth generated by my fingers begin to spread to my heart and into the room. And even though it would have been more logical to play a Rachmaninoff, the Adagio of Beethoven’s Pathetique just flowed naturally out of me; and I relished in how it hushed the room, hushed the drunk priests, and somehow it hushed my soul. I did not wish for a better piano. I did not wish for anything else at that moment. Up near the Azerbaijani border, music still found me, and it felt like home.

Jon Fosse: Trilogy

The fate of the fiddler is fatal… always giving yourself to others… always trying to make others whole…

…and if he was asked where it (music) came from, he answered that it probably came from grief, grieving over something, or just grief, and in the music grief could lighten and become soaring and the soaring could become happiness and joy, so therefore music was needed, therefore he had to play… 


It was the violin on the cover that decided my first Jon Fosse. I wouldn’t have known where to start, and I have been eager to start ever since he received the Nobel for prose which “gives voice to the unsayable”.

And so it was the violin, or rather the fiddle. And because of the fiddle, I sit here a day after reading the last line. A day, because for an entire day I could not write anything about it. I could only feel and think of it and nurse this prolonged pinch in my heart. And maybe that’s how it’s supposed to be, and I should drop my attempt to say something clever about it. 

Because I sit here and feel drenched by the weight of simplicity. Because in his words there is a childlike simplicity that humbles what we think we know about expressing life and about storytelling. Because Jon Fosse is a poet, and his poetry and prose bleed into each other, leaving no borders between them.

September 26, 2023 – The Music of Giza

The music of Giza is a counterpoint between the honking of impatient drivers and the voice of the muezzin. As the call to prayer washed across the Giza Plateau, my ride to the airport came and it was my call to head back home. After all, home is a prayer.

But how can one leave a place when it says goodbye looking like this? Your heart would break a little, too. But then again, what’s a little heartbreak if your heart has not been too well for a while?

The ancient Egyptians believed that when a person died, their heart would be weighed against a feather. It was always a question of whether the heart was heavy or light. As I leave, may the scales find my heart lighter than when I arrived.

Mavis Gallant: Paris Stories

“Leaving was the other half of arriving…”

Underneath the rumblings of revolution and the sparkling notes spilling over like champagne, Chopin’s music reaches for something far away… far away in distance, or in memory. The bulk of the work written in Paris, and yet they speak of other landscapes, of nostalgia for an irretrievable time and place, of exile, of home or the lack of it.

So were and so do Mavis Gallant’s Paris Stories. Had Gallant’s heart been brought home in a jar of cognac whilst the body remained in Paris, perhaps it would also have been found to be larger than the average human heart.

But how those hearts, Chopin’s and hers, continue to beat through the music, through the stories! 


“Like every other form of art, literature is no more and nothing less than a matter of life and death.” — Mavis Gallant

Haruki Murakami: Absolutely on Music

“Have you converted?” asked my best friend when he learned that I was reading this book. In other words, “Have you become a Harukist?”

Murakami became extremely popular in our circle during our teens and every reader we knew waved the Haruki banner high. But both of us shared a terrible secret: We were not into Murakami. We tried. We just somehow couldn’t.

Being both musicians, it was the biggest irony, because we love classical music, grew up with music by the Beatles, and listened to jazz — excellent and key ingredients in any Murakami work. (That After Dark opening? That is sheer music! I intentionally re-read it on a trip to Tokyo as the plane landed. Is there a better prelude to that megalopolis?)

But when we were younger, at what seemed to be the height of Murakami’s popularity, we instead entered a beautiful literary space occupied by the diaries of Anaïs Nin, the gushing streams of Clarice Lispector’s consciousness, and Colette. Perhaps we cannot be blamed if we felt like we weren’t missing anything by not being into Murakami.

Twenty-ish years later, I’m tiptoeing back into Murakami’s music room to eavesdrop on his conversations with Seiji Ozawa. (Recognizable to the younger generation and the world outside of classical music as the elderly conductor who, in a wheelchair and in tears, performed Beethoven’s “Egmont” Overture with the Saito Kinen Orchestra — a performance broadcasted live to outer space on the International Space Station in 2022.)

Glenn Gould breathing through the piano in the background as Leonard Bernstein conducts reassures me that, at least for now, I do not have to think about Murakami’s treatment of women in his novels.

The conversations between the two are like musical counterpoints played in tempo giusto. Writing and music as two melodic lines that diverge but remain in harmony, which oftentimes meet in unison when what the two have in common, hungry hearts and a penetrating ear for sound, “dig deeper and forge farther ahead”. 

From the contrasting conducting styles of Bernstein and Karajan, to the presence of “ma” (a Japanese word for the musical quality of pauses and empty spaces charged with meaning in Asian music) in Gould’s interpretations, to the dissection of Brahms’ orchestration, to the difference of sound between the world’s best orchestras, to John Coltrane’s free jazz, to Mahler’s music and the art of his time… I came out from my eavesdropping feeling more enlightened as a musician and as a person.

What a dream to listen to these conversations all day whilst partaking of Yoko Murakami’s rice cakes…


“…you can’t write well if you don’t have an ear for music. The two sides complement each other: listening to music improves your style; by improving your style, you improve your ability to listen to music… So how did I learn how to write? From listening to music. And what’s the most important thing in writing? It’s rhythm. No one’s going to read what you write unless it’s got rhythm. It has to have an inner rhythmic feel that propels the reader forward.” — Haruki Murakami, Absolutely on Music